Tashica Morgan, a 29-year-old Bowie, Md., native, was featured on the most recent season of HGTV's Design Star, where contestants compete for a chance to star in their own HGTV design show. The show airs Sunday nights at 10 p.m., and this past Sunday, Morgan was cut in a controversial elimination.
The challenge for Design Star contestants was a first in the show's history, transforming a family's garage into another room. The designers split up into two teams, with Morgan on a team with Dan Vickery, Lonni Paul and Nathan Galui. After the challenge, there was a double elimination, where one person from each team was eliminated. Jany Lee was the other designer whose show was "cancelled."
While Lee's elimination followed protocol, the elimination of Morgan was another first in Design Star history. In past episodes, the designers were sent to a green room, while the judges deliberate who to eliminate. In Morgan's case, the judges cancelled her show without deliberating first. After whispering among themselves for a moment, the judges called over the show's host, Clive Pearse, to deliver the news.
Features department intern Kayla Cross caught up with Morgan in a phone interview to discuss her elimination and overall experience on the show. ...
What did you think about the last two challenges?
I enjoyed [the individual challenge] the most obviously, because it was me, myself and I. Usually when you're designing, it’s usually your design as opposed to fighting for your design and I really felt comfortable in my skin doing that design. ... As far as the fourth challenge. I was OK with it. I thought it was pretty cool to do another challenge for a family and being in a group setting. I actually was excited because I was working with one of the finalists I’ve never worked with before, who was Nathan. So that was cool because it seemed that although my time after that was short, I’m glad I got a feel of everyone’s tastes and styles and work ethics before I got booted off the show.
What was going through your mind when you were eliminated?
First of all, I didn’t think it was going to happen the way it did. As it was happening, I felt cheated and pretty much slighted as a matter of how it was handled. ... There are some standards and procedures to any show and competition, and I thought that the manner that they handled this elimination, specifically on me, it wasn’t right. I didn’t have a good feeling. When it was happening, it seemed very staged, as if they were already planning this. [It was] as though they knew I was going to talk a hole in their head and while I was talking they were going to abruptly stop me in this rude manner and take the actions to another level. I really felt slighted. It wasn’t so much that I didn’t believe I shouldn’t have went home. It was a competition, everyone one by one has to go home, and it’ll eventually be one. But, I don’t have a problem leaving, it was just a matter of how I was dismissed. It was a matter of how they handled it, delivery is key to anything.
What did you think about their comments?
That’s nothing out of the normal, them asking "what did you do?" or "how do you think your design was heard?" ... I just felt that any of the challenges we have to prove what we did in the challenge. In my scenario, I just felt that it was harder to defend for the sake that I felt outnumbered by my teammates. It was a bad setup. I think people have been wanting me to go home from several challenges before. Because of that, it seemed as though ... no matter what I did, I could never do right. No matter what I said, no matter how I handled or acted. It was like, "I just want her out of here." It was more of a vendetta of an approach of some of the finalists. I guess that’s pretty much how the cookie crumbles.
Do you feel that Design Star portrayed you correctly on the show?
That’s a great question and I don’t think so. No, I do not think that Design Star portrayed me true to who I am. I think the only thing they portrayed right is that I’m very vocal, which is cool with me because I say out of my mouth is what comes out of my mouth and I stand by that. However, I’m not as sad or defeated or miserable or head hanging down low. It’s like the moment they got that image, they took it and ran with it. I mean, all I do is smile. I’m not trying to be funny, but I know myself. I’m high energy, I’m talkative, I’m always excited. I’m always ready to make a joke and laugh and play. I know that my true character still shone through the episode, but at the end of the day, the frowning and the constant weird angry faces, and frustrated faces, it really wasn’t me. I feel that the moment they got that response, they just ran with it. They never wanted to show me smiling. I’m too happy with life to be frowning, especially on TV. Hello? You’re on TV, it’s like the most happiest thing in the world. I feel that was the only way that they didn’t do me service.
Knowing that, and knowing the outcome of the show, would you have gone on the show if you had known that?
Absolutely. If you’re asking me if I would change anything, or regret, or turn back and do something different, no I wouldn’t. Everything happens for a reason. I’m a big believer that my path has already been set for me, and me going on that show just really made me a stronger person. It exposed me to things I like, as well as to things I didn’t like. At the end of the day, I would do it all over the same way. Honestly, I don’t think there is anything that can prepare you to do anything different because it’s something that’s like nothing else in the world.
What do you think you learned from this experience?
I think I learned to definitely very much stand my ground, and being firm in who I am and continuing to fight for what I believe in. Knowing that I am the ruler of my fate, and I direct my path, no one else does. Even though the judges were telling me that "I don’t see design" and "I don’t know why you’re on this show," they don’t dictate who I am as a designer. ... That’s what I learned. I understand that it just made me more sound in my profession and my passion to design. The fact that I was able to make it through, as opposed to being broken by it, really shows that this is where I’m supposed to be.
Did your experience on Design Star open any doors for you?
It did. It’s funny you ask. It’s not in the way I thought it would, although I did pray about it, as far as, "God use me on the show as touching or inspiring someone." That was my No. 1 reason behind going on the show, because I just feel like someone from my background, they don’t get those opportunities. ... I received a lot of emails and a lot of hits on my website just saying, "I come from the same background as you and you’ve really moved and inspired me." I mean people just pouring out their hearts and telling me how they want to take risks. That just touched me so much, and I was able to talk to them and minister to them and let them know to keep the faith, and keep going forward. You only have this opportunity once in a lifetime, and you don’t know what the end entails for you and no matter what, it’s going to be all right. It’s not the end of the world. ...
That was the door that opened with me. I was able to connect with people and people are looking to me and saying "Is it OK if I call you from time to time or email you," and "Can you be my mentor?" I’m just like wow, I’m beside myself because I don’t consider myself in the position personally as a mentoring person. ... I’m new in this industry, I’m new in this world myself. Yet, people look to me for that. I’m flattered and honored by it. That’s the main door that opened. Besides that business has been going on as usual. I was thinking I was going to get more business from this, and maybe I will, who knows? But, I’m still just as busy before as I am now.
What have you been doing since you left, with your design career?
Right now actually, I’m pausing because I’m installing a room for a client. It’s just been really busy. I haven’t really had any downtime. I haven’t cleaned my house as much as I like because I’m a pretty clean freak. So I woke up early this morning just to do laundry just so that I could feel sane in my household again. I’ve been so booked with work, just like before I left. I’m a workaholic. I design all day and all night, both at Ethan Allen and off the clock, for myself. I’ve just been doing my portfolio, and I’ve been doing my client’s house. That’s pretty much been occupying my time.
Then on the other end, I’ve been working on trying to get a couple things launched, including getting a mentorship program actually set up. Not for me to be the head mentor, but actually getting just a group together. Now that I have a position where I’m in where I can actually help others, I feel that this is a great opportunity.
Where did you plan to go from here?
Besides the whole continuing on with my designing, and mastering my craft. I’m heading back to school [Marymount University] in the fall, which is actually not in the fall, it’s in a couple weeks now. The time has gone by so fast. I’m a little nervous about going back to school. One, I’m nervous because of going back to campus. Leaving campus last semester, I must confess that people in the design program, they don’t look at HGTV as real design. I feel like I kind of was a traitor, so when I get back to school I’m interested to see how people respond. Not that I really care, but they are my peers and my professors. They’ve all said, "Oh, that stuff is not real." For me, since I left school, they were behind me but they were like "I hope you make it worth your while." So now I have to catch back up with school. Then of course, I’m getting ready to hopefully start a family with my husband so there’s a lot going on.
Overall, how do you feel about the show and the experience?
I want to be careful because I don’t want to say anything that I don’t really mean because it is definitely an emotional tie to my experience on this show. I feel sometimes that emotions can run wild. From my mind, from my sensibility, rationalizing the situation, I think the show, outside looking in now, is not all that I thought it was going to be. I definitely was expecting more. Not from the standpoint of me not being the design star because even if I was home I’d think that everyone just felt like it was supposed to be more of a positive experience. More of one of those dream-come-true moments, and it wasn’t that, unfortunately, it really wasn’t that.
It became more of just drama. I’m not into the drama. I didn’t go on the show for drama. I went on the show to design, and to prove myself. And it became more of creating a story like a soap opera and what’s going to happen this week? I’m like, viewers who watch the show aren’t watching for this, they really want to see the design. I hear the audience when I read these blogs and they’re like, "where are the designers?" I just feel so bad because they didn’t showcase our designing aspects, they really showcase how we were really throwing each other under the bus, and snarling at each other and rolling our eyes. I’m like, come on. Those five seconds where they kept showing people’s faces, they could’ve shown the details more of a room. Or shown how much work we actually did, cutting and painting and measuring. They didn’t show any of that. It was supposed to be more about design.
Unfortunately, I didn’t watch many shows in the past. I watched the first season, and I haven’t really watched since. I don’t know where this transpired from, but I do know that from when I first watched to now, it definitely has gone for the worse. I’m kind of upset in that matter, that I was a part of such an experience and a part of something like this. I wanted to be a part of something good, so hopefully some good will come from this including from the people who have emailed me and said that I directly touched them and inspired them, and motivated them. I mean, for what it’s worth that’s great news. But besides that, I talked to Lonni and I talked to NataLee and Nathan and Jason and we’ve all been just kind of like, "Aye ya ya," like what in the world have we signed up for? We’re all kind of flabbergasted and beside ourselves with the outcome of the show.
In your exit interview you mentioned that you felt like your voice wasn’t shown... ?
Yeah, yeah. My design voice, that is. I think that after the first challenge, my confidence was definitely a little bruised. It wasn’t like I was completely defeated and quit, but I knew I had to take a step back and re-evaluate how I wanted to go forward in this competition. With that, I decided I was going to be more of a team player as opposed to a boss lady, you know, fighting for this and competing that way. I have a competitive streak, but not in the manner of running over people and throwing people under the bus. I think what happened was I took such a back approach, I ended up not even really showing what I could do as a designer. So I do take fault for that, that was completely my responsibility and that’s where I think I did go wrong. I should’ve fought more for my design. ... I didn’t really fight for my design voice.
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